hey peeps, has been a while since the last post, i know. :) just that i dont have time to pour my heart out. but not anymore welcome the new me, the new year, the new chapter of everything. First of all, Assalamualaikum, Aqilah Zainuddin here if you're wondering. Im still holding a box of love btw. :3 ngeee the truth is, i've lost the ability to write or compose something , it is like the talent has been faded away just like the memories did.
    Friends? they're drifted away.. weathers are changing so does people.

love ? never know how is it going to end , well i hope there's no ending .

but , God, Allah... never change and always there for you. :)


time passing by, and im still here beneath the darkness of my life, but somehow i've found the light to shine . on August 10 2012 , You came to my life .i gave my heart a chance to fall in love again, im so happy that i could be with you, but somehow distance suck but i know distance means nothing when someone means everything.  but on the same time im afraid.... im afraid that you might slip away the way others did in my life. i cant accept when people come and go , i mean, dude! im not a pit stop but i know, its happen for a reason. i wish that you'll stay because for me you're my happiness.


love, Aqilah Zainuddin.

there's always someone that i will always love, think about, n care so much... even-thought  now, you've been replaced , but ..... i still miss you. i dont know how to describe how i feel. everything seem blurry each time i think about you.. i always ask to myself, why'd you think about someone who don't even care about you? .. is there's a possibility that i will have you back. . . . . ;( i wish you were next to me now..... i miss everything that happened between us.

sometimes, silence is my loudest cry. i think it would be easier if i was born "heartless/emotion-less" because there's always something that bring me down.

Dear Future Husband,

I dont know where are you now, and I hope that you're doing fine. I dont even know who are you , but it doesn't matter. I just want you to know , that i'm here, waiting for that day when you get your knee down and purpose me .I know that you could color my future life. I want you to be a great father, I dont want my kids feel what I've felt. I will try to be a good housewife, cause I know that I can .I want to be your one and only, I want you to love me for who i am....I will share all of my problems with you, and I don't want to have any secret between us... we gonna rock our world .. ;)

xoxo-Aqilah-

I know... you've been waiting for me for so long. I don't mean to hurt you, i want us to be in friendzone , not more than that, .. u know that love wont last long isn't? while friendship will last forever,. I do love you,.. and I don't want to lose you.. I'm sorry , I'm not ready for any relationship yet.  Friend?....

It is hard for me to breath... how could you do such thing to me? ... have i done anything incredibly wrong?
that day when you whispered "i love you" to my ears... is it just a lie? ... but.....why? i don't get it... time passing by but i cant get you outta my mind. ... i hope i can be better than this.. i know that I'll be okay, just not today...
new past